At my
daughter’s soccer practice, I see MOM’s everywhere. MOM’s who work at home,
those who have jobs outside the home, and those who are employed by their
family. I know enough to be aware that these ‘domestic engineers’ have a lot of
tasks they take care of. But don’t we employed MOM’s have the same tasks with
less time to accomplish them?
I have often wondered how these MOM’s that don’t work fill
their days. I’m sure that I could fill a reasonable amount of time, but all day
every day? Not sure. Then I noticed how they seem to have other MOM’s that also
don’t “work” that they spend time with. If I remember correctly, from my school
days, these were called friends.
Now don’t
get me wrong, I have friends. I am on Facebook and at last count I have327 “friends”.
Now, I just recently started Twittering and don’t have as many “friends” there,
but I follow a lot of people. I know that these “friends”, while some may be
from my school days, and some may just be faces I recognize , they are not the
same as the friends these MOM’s have.
I keep
telling myself I have a husband and kids and my life is full enough, but I am
feeling the need to socialize with women my own age. Not just about the kids
and what they have scheduled next, but heartfelt discussions. I need to feel
like I am a part of something outside of being a MOM and wife.
The beginning
of my mini, early, early, mid-life crisis has been the question of my
employment. I have wondered of late, if my job is where I need to be. In the
growth of my family and my journey with the Lord, I feel that I am being held
down and stuck in my current job. I know it is stressful for me as well as my
husband. I know that other jobs will be too, but I have always worked. My
husband has always said he doesn’t want me working. I know he would like it if
I was to not work at all.
I am not sure if I
can be a stay-at-home MOM. It wouldn’t be as hard now at it would have been ten
years ago. Now my youngest is 11 and not in need of me hourly. Now I might be
able to look into a work-from-home job. I have always wanted that, but never
had the connections I need to get it started. I am not sure if I am being
directed elsewhere for other employment or schooling. I just know I need to
start looking for those windows, because it seems as if a door might be closing
soon.
In all of this…pray
for me. I am, and will continue to pray on this.
Till next
time……
